My 8 favorite songs
September 29, 2009I am not really fond of music but I do have certain favorite songs that I usually remember when I am on my “emo” mode. When I checked the list that I made, most of the songs came from the 90’s. Listed below are the titles and lyrics of my favorite songs. They are in no particular order.
1. NOBODY KNOWS
By: The Tony Rich Project
I pretended I’m glad you went away
These four walls closin’ more every day
And I’m dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I’m crying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Why didn’t I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin’ down
I can say it so clearly
But you’re nowhere around
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin’ about
The love that we had
And I’m missin’ you
And nobody knows it but me
I carry a smile when I’m broken in two
And I’m nobody without someone like you
I’m tremblin’ inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it’s a quarter past three
I’m screamin’ at night as if I thought
You’d hear me
Yeah my heart is callin’ you
And nobody knows it but me
How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it’s been torn all apart
A million words couldn’t say just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I’ll be lovin’ you still
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin’ about
The love that we had
And I’m missin’ you
And nobody knows it but me
Tomorrow mornin’ I’m hitting the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I’m gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely…
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin’ about
The love that we had
And I’m missin’ you
And nobody knows it but me
2. ALL CRIED OUT
BY: ALLURE FT. 112
[allure]
All alone on a sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside Im slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Dont you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
cause Im tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple hello
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry
(I) I gave you my love in vain
Now Im all cried out, over you.
[112]
Cryin over you, yeah
Never wanted to see things your way,
Had to go astray
For why was I such a fool (why was I such a fool)
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home,
How could I be so wrong?
[allure]
Leaving me all alone
Dont you know my tears will cause an inferno
Romance often fades
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (so sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
Add it to the broken hearts youve collected
(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you
[112]
You left me so confused
[allure]
Now Im all cried out
Now Im all cried out
Over you
3. WHEN CAN I SEE YOU
BY: BABYFACE
When can my heart beat again
When does the pain ever end
When do the tears stop from running over
When does youll get over it begin
I hear what youre sayin
But I swear that its not making sense
So when can I see you
When can I see you again
When can my heart beat again
When can I see you again
And when can I breathe once again
And when can I see you again
When does my someday begin
When Ill find someone again
And what if I still am not truly over
What am I supposed to do then
Please hear what Im sayin
Even if, if its not making sense
So when can I see you
Please hear what Im sayin
Even if, if its not making sense
So when can I see you
4. I LOVE YOU BY SAIGON KICK
I may not be the man I wanted to
I may not be the king of wit
I may not know the things you need to know
I may not measure up quite yet
I may not have the grace of Fred Astaire
I may not have the mind of Jung
I cannot buy the things you need to have
But there is something you can’t forget
I love you
I love you
Through the fires
And all the hell
It’s something I can’t stop
I love you
It may not seem that I care enough
I may not take the time to say
You can’t leave me standing here alone
Until you hear what I have to say
I love you
I love you
Through the fires
And all the hell
It’s something I can’t stop
I love you
5. FIRE
BY: BABYFACE FT DES’REE
You’re riding in my car
I turn on the radio
I’m pulling you closer
But you keep tellin’ me no
You say you don’t like it
But I know you’re a liar
‘Cause when we kiss
Ooh…
Fire
Late at night
You’re taking me home
You say you wanna stay
But I want you to go
Say I don’t love you
But you know I’m a liar
‘Cause when we kiss
Ooh…
Fire
You had a hold on me right from the start
A grip so tight I couldn’t tear it apart
My nerves all jumpin’ actin’ like a fool
Well my kisses might burn
But my heart stays cool
Well Romeo and Juliet
Sampson and Delilah
Baby you can bet
They were burnin’ with desire
If I say split
Then I know that I’d be lying
‘Cause when we kiss
Ooh…
Fire
When we kiss
I’m on fire
Your tenderness
Gives me desire
I can’t resist
Your tender lips
When we kiss
Ooh…
Fire
When we kiss
I’m on fire
Your tenderness
Gives me desire
I can’t resist
Your tender lips
When we kiss
Ooh…
Fire
6. GROW OLD WITH YOU
BY: ADAM SANDLER
I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I’ll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I’ll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you’ve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
7. BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME
BY: CELINE DION
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
8. ALWAYS IN MY HEART
BY: TEVIN CAMPBELL
Verse 1:
Where do they get off telling you
That I am not the least bit into
Just tell me how the hell the can tell you they know whats in my heart
What do they get from telling you
That I dont give a damn about you
Just tell me why the hell somebody wants to tear your heart apart
Bridge:
Oh why, oh why, oh why, oh why, oh why
Why do some people have to tell you lies
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
I love you more than words could ever show
I cant, I cant, I cant, I cant explain
Why do some people have to be that way
I cant take much more, I cant ignore
I have to let you know whats in my heart
Chorus:
If I never ever say that I love you
Just remember, girl, Im saying I do
You should know that from this moment you are always in my heart
If I never ever say that I love you
Just remember, girl, Im saying I do
Love you
Youll be always in my heart
Verse 2:
Theyre not the ones to be there for you
When you need someone to turn to
They wont be anywhere, be anywhere when things start falling down
Oh, yeah
Theyre only in it to confuse you
So they can turn around and use you
But it cant happen, it wont happen girl as long as Im around
Bridge
Chorus
2nd bridge
Oh, why
Why, why, why
Yeah
Why did you have to listen to the lies
Oh, girl
My sweet girl
Well, there is only you inside my world
Oh, please
Baby, please
I wish you could believe in me
Right now
Right now
If only you could know
Chorus
Of failed relationships and dogs
If 2009 is my worst year, September is my worst month. Too many bad things happened to me but I am thankful we only have 1 day left for September. Hopefully, October would be a better month for me.
I am getting more and more de-motivated with my work. Just before I left for my RDs, I emailed my immediate superior for confirmation of my new work schedule and I did not get any so I followed the original schedule that he has given me. I really had a hard time waking up for my 12AM shift but I really forced myself to report to my new team only to find out that my deployment to the team was put on hold.
So here I am at 1AM with nothing to do except assist agents occasionally. More or less this has been my pattern for the past week and frankly, I am not used to so much inactivity. I should be thankful that I am getting paid for doing nothing but doing nothing makes the hours seem longer. As I have always said, patience is a virtue that I never had.
O and I are decidedly on speaking terms now. I could never stay mad with him for long but so many things came between us and it would always be there. I am not sure if it will ever be resolved. The pain is still there and I don’t think it will ever go away. It’s sad really but I believe it’s for the best if I move on with my life and not expect anything at all. I have also realized that the apology that I have been dying to hear from him would never materialize.
He also needs to do a lot of serious growing up and contemplate on what he really wants to do with his life and resolve issues that makes his life complicated as it is/
Probably, this is just a test for us. It could also mean the end of the road for us. I’m teary eyed again and I could not help it. Just thinking about what we’ve been through for the past ten years is no mean feat. We weathered a lot of storms because we had each other.
I actually detest melodrama, but in this case I just could not help it. A good friend of mine, Macky, told me that the best way for me to move on is to find someone new and he just happen to conveniently have someone in mind, his good friend James.
My feelings are still raw and I have so many excess baggages. Though nice the offer is I have to decline. It would not be fair and I don’t want to lead anyone on.
On the lighter note………
Earlier today, Dylan and Dion finally got their long awaited puppy they named Princess. To see the joy in my kids’ faces is really priceless. I already told them that Princess will be staying in our laundry area but they sneaked her in while I was resting. They would have succeeded in making me unaware of what they had done had the puppy not pooped in my mom’s room. Twice.
I told the kids that they would need to let the puppy out twice a day so she could do her thing and not mess our house. I hope the yaya was listening while I was talking to my kids so I would not be repeating any instructions to her tomorrow.
Tomorrow, I would need to buy a leash for the puppy as well as dog shampoo. I would also pray hard that the puppy will never find her way to my room.
HK Travelogue
September 27, 2009
I have always been fond of travels and always make it a point to go somewhere to relax even for awhile. Due to some financial strains, I wasn’t able to enjoy traveling as much as I want to this year though I had a short vacation in Hongkong with the kids last April. Their dad won the grand prize in our Xmas Party raffle. He won a trip for 2 Hongkong package. We brought the kids with us and we really had a blast in Disneyland . We were only there for 3 days and wished we could have extended our stay there but it was so darn expensive.
We were really impressed with Hongkong. It was the kids’ first time to be out of the country. Manila was scorching hot when we left it and it was noticeably cooler in Hongkong. We stayed in BP International in Tsim Shat Sui area in Kowloon .
Among the 4 of us, I was the only one who was game enough to try different kinds of food but we have decided to stick to food that the kids would really eat without any pressure. Thank God for Mcdonalds! There was one in almost every corner.
Highlight of the trip was really Disneyland . The kids were not interested to go anywhere else. Though HK Disneyland was small compared to the other Disneylands, we were still very impressed.
Our favorite ride was the Jungle River Cruise. The kids never grew tired of saying “oohs” and “aahhs” while we listen to the creative storytelling of the boat captain. We also liked the “It’s a small world” ride which brings us to the different cultures around the world. Personally, I loved the “Golden Mickeys” at the Disney Storybook Theater. It is a short musical regarding the history of Walt Disney. You just can’t help but fall in love with Ariel and fall dizzy with Tarzan’s acrobatic stunts.
To highlight our fun filled day, we ended it watching the so impressive fireworks.
While in Hongkong, we also took advantage of the fact that we were there and one of the inclusions of our trip was a visit to TCL Jewelry Factory. I was agog by how inexpensive the jewelry was. To commemorate our stay there, I was given a two tone bracelet.
We were able to buy a PSP for only 6k for our kids. I was also able to buy a lot of stuffs from their night market and ladies market.
I would definitely love to visit Hongkong again.
Taken from other blogs
Got this from Sana’s blog and I just could not resist posting it:
Cheating happens when you start looking for what you dont have.
Somewhere along the way, you will meet someone who will be more charming or sensitive than the one you’re already with., more sexy. more thoughtful. wealthier. better in bed. and you will meet someone who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your boyfriend/girlfriend ever did. because no boyfriend/girlfriend is perfect. because your boyfriend/girlfriend will only have 90 percent of what youre looking for. So, cheating happens when you look for the missing 10 percent.
Lets say your girlfriend is melancholic by nature. You may find yourself drawn to the pretty girl next-door who has a cheerleader laugh no matter what she says: I broke my arm yesterday, ha ha ha… Or because your girlfriend is a couch potato who is always in pajamas and smelling of garlic and cooking oil, you may fall for the CK-One-smelling colleague who comes to work in a sharp pinstripe blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt. Or because your boyfriend is the type who never shuts up even when youve tried using duct tape, your heart may skip a beat when you sit next to a brooding, mysterious Latino on the bus.
But wait! Thats only 10 percent of what you dont have. Dont throw away the 90 percent that you already do! add to the 90 percent the 100 percent that represents all the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have weathered together. The many adjustments you have made to better understand each others little quirks and idiosyncracies. The wealth of memories that you have accumulated as lovers. The old sparks that can always be rekindled by the walk on the beach, barefoot and underneath the stars…
Cheating happens when you start looking for what you dont have. But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you already do.
TIME FOR CHANGE
September 25, 20092010 is fast approaching and I can hardly wait to leave 2009 behind. 2009 has really been the worst year for me ever. Everything that you thought would go wrong really went wrong. I’ve experienced a lot of betrayals from both friends and a loved one. My kids were sickly this year. Problems with work also surfaced.
I’m almost at the end of my tether. They say misfortune comes in threes but I dare disagree. Misfortune comes always for the whole year. One good thing though came out of this. I found out how tough I can be. Just when I thought I was about to give up, I found another reason to persevere.
I’ve made a list of things that I will be doing starting right now for 2010:
- Settle all obligations and make 2010 debt-free. Yeah, that includes credit cards and such.
- Look for other opportunities. I will start processing papers for abroad. If possible, look for job opportunities abroad that will include kids in the package.
- Spend as much time as possible with my kids. Extend my patience to them. Rear them to become God-fearing.
- Bring the kids to church every Sunday. No excuses needed. I will teach them to put God in the center of their lives.
- I will not lose communication with my friends. I will give them time. The past two weeks made me appreciate how lucky I am to have these friends at my side.
- I will put myself first. It is never right to compromise your feelings for someone else. Always follow your intuition. It rarely is wrong. Especially when it comes to matters of the heart.
- Learn to let go of things and persons you’ve outgrown.
- Understand that sometimes, love just ain’t it enough and it is never right to settle for anything less.
My life is pretty much a mess right now. I am not ignoring it. I am praying and contemplating that whatever decisions I make will be the right one. I will do what I think is right for me and not what others think is right for me. I believe that I am slowly on my road to recovery.
I will end this article with this poem that I find so helpful to parents:
Child’s Ten Commandments to Parents
by: Author Unknown, Source Unknown
| 1. My hands are small. Please don’t expect perfection whenever I make a bed, draw a picture or throw a ball. My legs are short. Please slow down so that I can keep up with you. 2. My eyes have not seen the world as yours have. Please let me explore safely. Don’t restrict me unnecessarily. 3. Housework will always be there. I’m only little for such a short time. Please take time to explain things to me about this wonderful world, and do so willingly. 4. My feelings are tender. Please be sensitive to my needs. Don’t nag me all day long. (You wouldn’t want to be nagged for your inquisitiveness.) Treat me as you would like to be treated. 5. I am a special gift from God. Please treasure me, holding me accountable for my actions, giving me guidelines to live by and disciplining me in a loving manner. 6. I need your encouragement and your praise to grow. Please go easy on the criticism. Remember, you can criticize the things I do without criticizing me. 7. Please give me the freedom to make decisions concerning myself. Permit me to fail so that I can learn from my mistakes. Then someday, I’ll be prepared to make the kind of decisions life requires of me. 8. Please don’t do things over for me. Somehow that makes me feel that my efforts didn’t quite measure up to your expectations. I know it’s hard, but please don’t try to compare me with my brother or my sister. 9. Please don’t be afraid to leave for a weekend together. Kids need vacations from parents, just as parents need vacations from kids. Besides, it’s a great way to show us kids that your marriage is very special. 10. Please take me to worship regularly, setting a good example for me to follow |
