How Gra got her groove back

I have been in a rut for so long and I just could not understand myself for so long. No matter what I do, there are times when I just don’t want to do anything at all except stare in blank space. I know I have been extremely unfair to myself, to my kids, my agents and friends and I have totally decided to snap out of it.

But how? How can I be my old self? How can I get my groove back? When my 10 year relationship ended a few months ago, a significant part of me died with it. I am actually okay now but I am still feeling the aftermath of the devastation I felt when it first happened to me. Not only did I lost a love I have cherished for so long, I also lost my self-worth and confidence.  sudenly, I began doubting myself and I even shy away from those that mattered to me.

I am very fortunate though to have friends who were always willing to listen to me even though I sound like a broken record at times. There were a lot of i-told-you-sos but I know that they mean well and have my best interests at heart. An improved relationship with my mom also helped a lot. The quiet support and understanding I got from my agents was a welcome bonus. They did not know the whole story but they knew I was having problems and never added to it. The joy I always get from my two wonderful kids is undeniable.

But it’s actually my own determination to really move on by getting rid of my demonsthat help me get my groove back. I decided to confront my fears and deal with it. I am no longer in the denail stage. I let go and now I am happy no matter what the outcome is.